Happy Monday Friends!
Even though I didn’t do much, I still wanted to write a little something because it’s post day! I had a really relaxed weekend. Got some friend time in which always fills me up and I also got a lot of work done which I’m thankful for. With camp coming up next weekend an then Chicago next, lesson planning and thesis work will be the last thing on my mind.
I had a fun time trying new workouts with Athleta too on Saturday! I had a little parfait station with Siggis and Perfect bar to refuel everyone.
The best things I ate this weekend? 2 things.
This Foster’s Freeze cone.
And this brunch at Bacari in Glendale. Highly recommend!
Best thing I drank? 2 Things
Rose by the fire with my best friend and our best friend sisters. Yes my best friend has a sister who is my sister’s best friend. We love how that works!
(That’s my sister, Kate)
# 2 a super refreshing mimosa!
I also did a little shopping and found the most perfect shirt at Madewell. I did something super creative today and it actually really de-stressed me! I styled this shirt 4 ways (I’m finally growing into my style and how to wear clothes for my body and I’m LOVING IT) and I’ll share those with you later this week. Here is a basic sneak peak with no accessories! Scarf is stitch fix and jeans are loft!
This weekend was just a little blah for me. I have some stuff on my mind and sometimes I get carried away with that! Let me clarify that this is totally ok, being happy and excited 100% of this time isn’t normal which I think gets confusing when we talk about mental health. Feelings are a good thing- just as long as we can move on from those feelings towards our happy selves- you feel me?!
Our priest gave this homily last night that struck me to my core. Maybe best homily I’ve ever heard? He spoke about how it’s human nature to stop acting in a certain way out of fear. I had never really thought about life like that but it’s so true. The entire church was deeply concentrated on the topic which was something I rarely see in a Catholic mass. Think about it- we love to do certain things but the minute something comes up that may have a bad outcome we pull back because we love the way it is now and fear what the outcome could be. An example he gave was bringing up an idea to your boss that could be really awesome or worst case you could get fired. We as humans always end up at the worst case scenario first when in reality it probably wouldn’t go there at all. Maybe your boss would ignore your suggestion, maybe they would applaud you for it and promote you, maybe they would acknowledge it and say “eh” and move along. You really never know but we most often go to the worst case.
I think about a lot of worst case scenario stuff in my own head just like you do. I think about my career as an RD and then if it trails too long I start to compare myself and say “but what if I don’t help anyone” or “what if I fail“. In my head I know those won’t come true because even through this space as an RD to be- I’ve been able to help people. I know I won’t fail because there really is no failing only learning and re-formatting (which isn’t easy).
I think about failing in my relationships. I’m blessed to have some super awesome circles of friends/family/etc. but there are times I doubt my circles and my responsibilities within those circles. “Am I being a supportive and encouraging friend or daughter or niece right now?” “To what extent do I stay in my friend groups and to what extent do I branch out because were changing as individuals?”, “Do my friends still support me even if they don’t agree with a decision I’ve made?”. Stuff like that. You know how it goes!
I know you do this too in some capacity because you are human. I’m proud to be a deep thinker because it makes me an intentional person. So, that was my weekend. Some sweet time with food and friends but then some time to think. Maybe you can think about what you aren’t doing because of fear and pray on that, journal on it, express it, or just mull it over. Maybe you change your course of action or maybe you sit it out.